Thursday, July 4, 2019

16,790 days

 2 days ago, I turned 16,790 days old. That's a lot of days. 46 years. I am not sure when I was 20 what I thought would be doing when I turned 46 years old I am a wife and a mother of 3. My oldest just turned 14 and my youngest just turned 10.  I had an ovary removed in 2002. I had my thyroid removed in 2011 and lost my gall bladder in 2016.

   I am still fat. Those surgeries had nothing to do with my being fat nor were they supposed to fix fat. I have struggled with my thyroid levels on and off. Some medications became unavailable and they had to change me. I can't take any synthetics, so I now take Armour. People look at you strange when they find that out when you eat a plant based diet. Oh well. I have to take something or die.

   My labs are great again. Before being put on Armour I was taking nature throid and I didn't take to it well. But it took me a full year to realize what was wrong. I had every hypo symptom but since my dose hadn't changed and it was a slow process, I never thought it was the issue. Until I realized my TSH had gone from 1.3 to 4.25. I am symptomatic starting at 3. My new doctor likes my TSH under 1. My old one wanted me at 2.  Why can't they let the person decide where they should be considering they have to live in the body?? I do feel best just below 1 though. Now finding out I might have to change again due to insurance and a buy out at my husband's work. Sigh....

  My diet....yeah that is an up and down fiasco at times. I don't know why. Last July through Sept I lost 23 pounds and I just suddenly stopped. I had been at my highest ever weight and I just stopped. I gained only 6 pounds back and have maintained since...but I don't get it.. I don't get why I just stop. I can't say I get any specific cravings....Sometimes I get really really busy and I don't have food planned.

Last Friday I went shopping and got all kinds of great stuff to premake a bunch of things. Hubby complains that I never have anything ready. On my birthday, I woke up not feeling great. I had a headache and I coughed and thought uh oh.....went to work and drug....got home about 1, took a shower and crashed. I was sick. So all that food sits. Same old story. I feel slightly better today. Not even sure what I actually have. I've had fevers, body aches, headaches, dizziness, and a mild cough. That's it. Shrug....But again all that food sits. I took a 3 hour nap today and woke up feeling better, but I am still pretty dizzy. Well par for the course I guess.

Tomorrow I must go back to work and I will have to work Saturday now too. I will make what food is still good and move on with it. I am down about 4 pounds over the course of the past week. I am about 3 pounds away from that low back last September. So that is something. I think once I lose another 6 pounds altogether, it will be my lowest since getting my thyroid removed.

I have a goal...Over the next 4 years, before turning 50 (18,250 days), I want to be at my goal weight of 105 and have under control ALL of my health issues. When I make my next post, I will list what health issues I have, ones I've treated/reversed and what still lingers. But tonight, I am tired.